my heart burns and aches for you
when I abandon you
I feel it most
when I pick up a book or go for a run
when I’m out and about having fun
at a bar with friends and
conversing about philosophy and trends
I can’t help but think about what I could be doing with you,
what I could tell you about this moment
my thoughts,
the environment,
and what makes me feel alive
right now.
right now.
If I don’t tell you I will forget.
and often times, I do.
I forget to tell you
I forget what to say
because in those moments
I forget what to say
because in those moments
I forgot to live.
so focused on you
so obsessed with an idea
that I confuse myself
remove myself
from those moments
remove myself
from those moments
yet you welcome me again, with open arms
we start over—a fresh new page each time
you take me
into other worlds.
My Dearest Journal, my companion, my only true friend:
Yours Truly, Ani